Backstory
(has nothing to do with today’s topic you can skip if you want)
Hi it’s 3:23am right now and I just woke up. yeah I’m writing this in midnight out of nowhere. I was sleeping and I saw a dream, the dream had nothing to do with today’s topic though but while dreaming i suddenly woke up and had water. I was feeling very heavy on the inside. And without any reason I started weeping, cause I was really missing someone’s presence again out of nowhere. I was thinking of things that have hurt me in the past, I was thinking about the things people had to say about me just because I lived in a certain way and that’s what I wanna talk to you about today!
Here we go!
So hi! First of all I’m very sorry that I wasn’t able to post last week. But here I am. Let’s begin.
So I come from a descent middle class family and my family is quite liberal when it comes to how you dress up or who you talk to, basically they’re comparatively less conservative when it comes to raising a girl!
Now I didn’t have a very normal life growing up. I have had my ups and downs just like any other girl would have had. I’m opening a part of my life today and I don’t know how people are gonna take it but certainly I’m in a mind space where I don’t care anymore.
I’ve always been a very jovial person. I really liked talking to new people and for some reason I had a very good equation with boys rather girls since the beginning. Now in the society that we live in today if you have a lot of guy friends and if you wear anything revealing you’re automatically given various kinds of tags. So how could it be any different with me. I was given disgusting tags I don’t wanna say all of them here because every girl reading this can relate to what I’m talking about right now. And it’s not just strangers who talked like that, it was everybody. I remember my best friend telling me on her terrace that her parents don’t want her to hang out with me since I’m a bad influence on her life, I remember one of my family members telling me I’ve drowned our family’s reputation by being myself, I remember my school friends talking all sorts of things just because I was too friendly and kind. And it doesn’t ends here I have had my own guy friends spreading rumours about me just because I talked to them. According to them if a girl is talking to a guy she’s basically asking for it. Being a girl is not easy, If you’re not strong mentally, you have to think multiple times how people are going to react to your actions. For years I have been affected by what others said about me ,and that’s why I just don’t like making friends . I’ve got trust issues for the rest of my life. You would have heard a lot of people saying “girls have lots of trust issues” yes they do have trust issues because they’re treated in a way that they didn’t deserve. Y’all say it very loudly that dude FEMINISM is full of shit. Girls use it as an excuse. You don’t understand because you haven’t dealt with what we literally face in our daily lives and in no way I’m trying to say boys don’t go through these things but they’re not judged for talking to multiple girls , infact they’re considered a stud, on the other hand girls like me who have a lot of guy friends are called out as sluts. Why? There’s no reason. I have had this question for so many years that why. Why do people think like that. But I still have no answer. I don’t have a clue why we need this barrier of superiority. But growing up that one thing I’ve realized is not all people are the same. Be it girls or guys. Lot of people say men are trash. No men are not trash . Men are beautiful it’s just a section of uneducated and illiterate people who are trash. And I can say this because I’ve experienced it. I’ve had the worst and today I have the best. It’s about who you choose. I made horrible choices in the past in choosing my friends and I’ve corrected my choices and I have amazing friends in present. So never let any bad experience stop you from achieving your best. Always believe the best is yet to come. There are beautiful things waiting for you. You deserve the best and you have all the rights to fight for them. If you’re a teenager who’s getting affected by such things that I’ve mentioned above I just wanna say don’t let that toxicity affect you I know it’s a little hard but hey we’re gonna make it through. Please stay safe and know that no matter what anybody says there are two people who will never think bad about you and that’s your parents.
Lots of love stay safe.
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I know some of you get confused because I talk off the topic a lot but it’s like I wanna convey as much as I can!
EIKA 